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Wed Sep 2, 2009, 12:20 PM
Another year has started at school here and I can't believe how alone I feel when I leave the campus and go back home. I walk in the door and I feel like I could be doing something more, something that's for me. Then I look in on mom and I feel guilty for wanting to leave. So I sit in my room, do what paper work that I have for whatever; clean up the desktop of my laptop, and cook dinner. Then I go to sleep and know that it's all going to repeat itself when I wake up the next morning. And a small part of my thinks that this is the punishment that I get for lying and not doing whatever it is that my mom thinks that I should be doing. I get up in the morning to a silent house, I get dressed, make breakfast and lunch, and I wait for my ride. And while I wait all I feel is self loathing for the fact that I don't have a job, or a car, or something that my mom has no control over. I don't know what to feel and most of the time I feel like I feel nothing at all. Part of me wishes that I could just run. Maybe go to my brothers house, or even just disappear and move to another town all by myself. I know that I won't ever do that. I'm to scared about what would happen if I were to leave my mom. I'm all she has. I can't just leave her by herself. Maybe one day I will be able to make my life my own; but it's won't be anytime soon.

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